Feels like I'm looking for a reason, Roamin' through the night to find my place in this world. Not a lot to lean on, I need your light to help me find my place in this world, my place in this world. ~Michael W. Smith
Wednesday, October 5, 2016
Not Gone, Just Different
While I speak about her in past tense, I do not mean to imply Aunt Lanelle is gone. She is not gone. She is just different. A number of years ago, she was diagnosed with Alzheimer's Disease. In her early stages of this mind-altering condition, you may not have even noticed a difference if you didn't know her. Names failed to come to mind, even the spelling of her own on one occasion in my presence. Yet, her smile and joyful spirit remained.
Until last week, James and I had not seen Aunt Lanelle in a few years since the onset. For years while receiving her detailed letters, we had the great desire to visit her home in the Pacific Northwest. Last week, a business trip for James allowed us the opportunity to finally visit. However, it wasn't to the log home she raved about in Clackamas or the more recently built Washington State home that had a picture window that framed Mt. Hood. It was at her nursing home facility.
As we made plans to visit, we were a little apprehensive. We didn't want to cause her undue stress, but we had a strong desire to see her. Before we saw her, we met with the activities director and asked her advice on the best way to approach our beloved aunt. We all agreed that we would just visit with her and not try to make a familial connection. We would just be James and Jennifer visiting from Georgia. After making that decision, we were led around a corner to see her. We then spent about 5-10 minutes looking around for. She was on the go, walking the premises with a friend, darting here and there. Then, there she was. Her little petite dark haired precious self. We had been told by the director not to expect much expression from her as she didn't show much facial change based on emotion. As we were introduced to her as visitors from Georgia, she commented that it was nice to have new faces around, then she looked up at James' face as his name was called. For a short instance, I believe there was a recognition. She smiled a very big smile at him. As quickly as it came, it faded. We exchanged a few pleasantries then she was off to walk again. A few minutes later, she made her rounds again, and we talked about her teal fingernail polish and how it matched her friend's socks. That made her laugh out loud, but it, too, quickly faded. She was off to walk again.
We left there with a smile on our face and a tear in our eye. I think we will always cherish our times with her, whether it was years ago playing Taboo and making her curse, getting her up on waterskis, or our latest bittersweet encounter. Aunt Lanelle is not gone, but different.
This was the last picture I took of Aunt Lanelle (right) with her beautiful and loving sister (left) a few years ago after the diagnosis.
Monday, February 29, 2016
Why Resist the Change?
A topic for discussion has come up in our local church this week regarding the time given to the earlier morning worship services. 45 minutes have been historically allotted for these two services before the Sunday School hour that begins (also historically) at 9:45 for more classes. The idea of pushing back the earlier services to begin at 8:45 or possibly 8:30 has ruffled a number of feathers. Over the course of the last 8 months, our church has been experiencing a number of changes in worship format under the leadership of our newest senior pastor. Some congregants have embraced the changes readily while others have had a more reserved attitude. The truth is that our church has been in a slow and steady decline for the past ten years. If we continue the historical practices, we will continue the historical decline. We have to make some changes in order to grow. Isn't that true in every aspect of our lives? Changes are inevitable. We can resist them, but like it or not, something changes.
Back to the topic of changing the worship times to allow for a full hour of worship and Sunday School...what is the reason for objection? Is allowing an extra 15-30 minutes for God on a Sunday morning a bad thing? Are our Sundays so packed that we can only give God one hour and 45 minutes right now? What really happens if the 11:00 service runs past noon? Before you object to the time change, I just ask that you explore why you object. I am not a morning person, and the idea of getting up even 30 minutes earlier makes me groan, but is it really about me? I want spend time with God. I want to be fed thru the scriptures read, the dialogue with peers, the message from our pastor, whether senior or assistant pastor. I should be happy to be given the opportunity to have more time in worship of my Lord, because the Lord knows I don't devote as much time during the week to Him as I should.
As I said earlier, we all have our opinions and believe our own is the right one. I just ask that as you form your opinion, ask why you believe what you believe. Is it to suit yourself or do you truly believe it is for the good of the whole congregation?
Change is hard, but sometimes it is necessary in order to grow. I believe that both of our pastors have been sent to help revive our church, to stop the bleeding, and change the historical decline. They are not the church however. "I am the church, you are the church, we are the church together."
I say all of this not to ruffle any more feathers or create division or even offend. We are all different, but we need to be together. The music would be so much sweeter...
Wednesday, July 8, 2015
There Are Far Better Things Ahead Than Any We Leave Behind
“Forget the former
things;
do not dwell on the
past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now
it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and
streams in the wasteland.”
Isaiah 43:18-19 New International Version (NIV)
Humans are
curious by nature I think. Our minds wander and wonder about many things
throughout the day, and even throughout the night at times. Social media
connections contribute immensely to the mind-racing at times. Hours can be
spent, I dare say wasted, on Facebook searching for old acquaintances/friends,
or quietly stalking people’s pages. Checking out the old hometown newspaper can
also be a great source of angst at times.
It occurred
to me the contradiction in wanting to remove myself from my old life yet often
clicking on links that will take me right back. Sometimes, I find a pleasant
memory, but all too often, something appears that only renews heartache.
Curiosity killed the cat, right?
It is okay
to know where one comes from. However, I believe it is more important to know
where one is going. It is important we know our history, but we must not dwell
there. We cannot change the past, but we can change the future. Each day we
must choose to move forward. Philippians 3:13-14 says Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold
of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what
is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called
me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
It matters
not who I was, but who I am now and will be tomorrow.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.”
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Life is Full of Stages...Which One Are You In?
Wednesday, March 4, 2015
To Feed or Be Fed? That Is the Question.
I haven't thought about that in quite some time, but there was a time in my life that I had to think about it. A number of years ago, actually over 15 years, I was extremely active in my church, doing this and that, sort of all over the place. Committees, bible studies, teaching, and yet I became disgruntled. I needed "to be fed" spiritually. I began to complain about my church and contemplated changing where I worshiped. Pretty soon, nothing at church seemed to satisfy me. There came a time I finally voiced all of my feelings to my husband James...my ever wise and level-headed husband. His response has stayed with me since that moment. He said, "Maybe this is not a time for you to be fed at church, but a time for you to feed. You can get fed in other ways and places."
What?!? Not a time for me to be fed? Isn't that why I go to church? Soon I realized what he meant. When I refocused my energy and efforts at church to serve others in a more intentional way rather than focusing on what I needed, I was blessed beyond comprehension. And guess what? I got "fed".
Christ came to serve and to attend to the needs of others. He didn't focus on himself and what he needed. He fulfilled His purpose by serving others.
When we put our own wants and needs aside, and focus on those of others, we are blessed. We are fulfilled. We are fed spiritually.
This perspective brought to me by my husband has had a tremendous impact on my life. It has prompted me to carefully choose when and where I serve so that I may be doing so according to the will of God, not what I want or need. If I serve to please God, not to somehow make myself feel good or be fed, then it becomes a fruitful endeavor resulting in me being blessed anyhow.
Rick Warren in his book A Purpose-Driven Life opens with the line "it's not about you." It is about Jesus Christ. It is about having a relationship with Our Father. It is about loving your neighbor as yourself. Those words, along with James' profound insight, has shaped my life and my attitude toward church. When we change our focus from ourselves, we are blessed. Blessed beyond understanding.
Matthew 7:21-23New American Standard Bible (NASB)
21 “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father who is in heaven will enter.22 Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many[a]miracles?’ 23 And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you;
Monday, April 7, 2014
Severing Ties - Lenten Devotional 21
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Here Am I - Lenten Devotional 20
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
One Day vs. A Thousand- Lenten Devotional 19
Sunday, March 23, 2014
Who is He? - Lenten Devotional 18
In Exodus, the Passover Lamb
In Leviticus, He's our High Priest
Numbers, The fire by night
Deuteronomy, He's Moses' voice
In Joshua, He is salvation's choice
Judges, law giver
In Ruth, the kinsmen-redeemer
First and second Samuel, our trusted prophet
In Kings and Chronicles, He's sovereign
Ezra, true and faithful scribe
Nehemiah, He's the rebuilder of broken walls and lives
In Esther, He's Mordecai's courage
In Job, the timeless redeemer
In Psalms, He is our morning song
In Proverbs, wisdom's cry
Ecclesiastes, the time and season
In the Song of Solomon, He is the lover's dream
He is, He is, HE IS!
In Isaiah, He's Prince of Peace
Jeremiah, the weeping prophet
In Lamentations, the cry for Israel
Ezekiel, He's the call from sin
In Daniel, the stranger in the fire
In Hosea, He is forever faithful
In Joel, He's the Spirits power
In Amos, the arms that carry us
In Obadiah, He's the Lord our Savior
In Jonah, He's the great missionary
In Micah, the promise of peace
In Nahum, He is our strength and our shield
In Habakkuk and Zephaniah, He's pleading for revival
In Haggai, He restores a lost heritage
In Zechariah, our fountain
In Malachi, He is the son of righteousness rising with healing in His wings
He is, He is, HE IS!
In Matthew, Mark, Luke and John, He is God, Man, Messiah
In the book of Acts, He is fire from heaven
In Romans, He's the grace of God
In Corinthians, the power of love
In Galatians, He is freedom from the curse of sin
Ephesians, our glorious treasure
Philippians, the servants heart
In Colossians, He's the Godhead Trinity
Thessalonians, our coming King
In Timothy, Titus, Philemon He's our mediator and our faithful Pastor
In Hebrews, the everlasting covenant
In James, the one who heals the sick.
In First and Second Peter, he is our Shepherd
In John and in Jude, He is the lover coming for His bride
In the Revelation, He is King of Kings and Lord of Lords
He is, He is, HE IS!
The prince of peace
The Son of man
The Lamb of God
The great I AM
He's the alpha and omega
Our God and our Savior
He is Jesus Christ the Lord
and when time is no more
He is, HE IS!
Words by Jeoffrey Benward & Jeff Silvey
Saturday, March 22, 2014
Knock Knock! Who's There? - Lenten Devotional 17
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Camp Viola: God is in the Details - Lenten Devotional 16
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Same With God - Lenten Devotional 15
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
What Would You Do For A Klondike Bar? - Lenten Devotional 14
Monday, March 17, 2014
"Father Abraham Had Many Sons..." - Lenten Devotional 13
Over time, God's plan included more than just the Jewish nation. Gentiles were extended the invitation for a relationship with His Son. That invitation is still in place for all today. Don't leave that RSVP lost and unnoticed. Make a point of accepting what has been offered. Really, what have you got to lose? More importantly, what could you gain?
Sunday, March 16, 2014
An Amazing Pride! - Lenten Devotional 12
Shallow, Thorny, Productive - Lenten Devotional 11
Friday, March 14, 2014
Who Is My Family? Lenten Devotional 10
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Because I Said So. Lenten Devotional 9
As His children, we must be obedient to His plan and purpose even during those times we don't know or understand. Just like as children we must obey our parents when we don't know the reasons or understand.
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
We Need More - Lenten Devotional 8
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Tuesday, March 11, 2014
What Am I Missing Here? - Lenten Devotional 7
"All God's plans have the mark of the cross on them and all His plans have death to self in them."

















